On the day where everyone I thought I went fast, I merely prayed desperately to God for smoothe strokes. But, when I paddled, my speed felt the same as usual. I looked around and saw how unusually slow the others were that day. It was a strange occurence and the next few days of rumors of me being the third fastest spread around.
I felt a little happy cuz part of my goals was achieved. But it felt wrong for some reason, like I took advantage of the tiredness of others to go… fast? So my pride sunk upon realisation and felt irritated when others called me fast when merely they were just tired…
The next training on Friday, I felt like my adrenalin level dropped drastically. Kinda felt like stopping every 6 strokes. It was hard to paddle and remain stable. My hands still feel shaky and legs wobbly for some reason. I don’t feel like my energy’s low, rather I lost my drive to go fast(?).
I dunno how to explain it but that’s how I felt…
